Angry, I'm so dreadfully angry that I'm afraid I'm gonna rip someone's heart out. Whole day long I was busy with the most fruitless task ever: I was counting the money that are supposed to stimulate my work. Supposed is the key word, I guess, 'cause the result I've got is so "motivating" that I'm thinking of quitting this job. It appears that I'm working so hard and achieving so much my stimulation will be about 1600 roubles - the amount of money that will be given to my colleague so they just manage to make both ends meet. By mere chance, this is the sum I get for a single individual student per month.
Question is: IS MY WORK A KIND OF WORK FOR ITS OWN SAKE? Or should I quit working for the state?
My thoughts are a complete mess right now. Maybe they'll settle down a bit and will see some greater picture that IS indeed stimulating. Oneday. Maybe.
I wonder, if I still be working for the state at that bright moment.